A Lesson About Insecurity Learned the Hard Way


We all have our demons that hold us back. Sometimes we wrestle with them. Sometimes, we just cuddle. I’m familiar enough to know mine pretty well and how they affect me. My biggest one is my insecurity. It’s a deeply ingrained character flaw that was installed by a series of challenging life events in my childhood. My parents separated when I was young and I was generally under-parented through a contentious divorce. I went through a period when my skin was so messed up with acne that I had to take medication. I went to boarding school for high school to avoid switching between two houses every week, then left the first one I went to because I “didn’t like the students there,” then got kicked out of the next boarding school I went to. Then ended up as the only white student to have EVER attended the now defunct Native American Preparatory School where I was in the perfect position to hide my issues under “the experience of being a minority.” All of this insecurity lead me to commit the most dangerous, destructive, and evil thing that I have ever done: enlist in the US Marines in order to kill for politicians. Not only did this lead to a whole other host of personal challenges with “authority,” but also a PTSD-inducing 7 months in Fallujah.

So what this all adds up to is a tendency that I see is very common today. Maybe putting “insecurity” in the title of this post is a bit misleading. Insecurity could be said to be the motivator, and I think we all have some, but I want to focus on the thought pattern that this insecurity has produced in me, because I think that would be far more helpful than getting to know my demons. Self-awareness is useless without the commitment to apply it and examine how that self-knowledge can improve your life. So I leave that part to you and highly encourage you to get to know your demons enough to dispel their power. Similar to the talk therapy approach I would advocate for fellow combat veterans dealing with PTSD, “The process of taking things that are rattling around in your subconscious mind and putting them front and center in conscious mind through talking about them, writing about them, or making art inspired by them, – whatever your mechanism is – empowers you to control them, instead of them controlling you.” Let us not be prisoners of our past!

Regardless of your personal demons, what I see in our community that I’d like to address is a thought pattern that leads us to always err on the side of, “they probably don’t like me.” For some this is driven by insecurity, for others, by a fear of hurting someone else. For me, it’s both. It’s like having a hyperactive conscience that convicts you without a trial. When something goes wrong, we consider ourselves guilty until proven innocent by others. Not only does this reinforce an unnecessarily negative mindset and create unnecessary mental anguish, it wreaks havoc on our relationships and robs us of our potential connectedness.

In my experience, this has manifested particularly painfully around social media and other digital communication. You didn’t reply to my text? It couldn’t possibly be because you were busy and somehow replying to me slipped down your to do list just underneath getting in a car accident, losing your job, or having your house burn down. You must be ignoring me! You didn’t write back to my simple email request? It couldn’t possible be because you’re overwhelmed with email like nearly everyone else. It must be because you think you’re better than me and my emails aren’t worth responding to! You didn’t call me back after I left you that heartfelt message? It couldn’t possibly be because it’s under a pile of voicemails as high as Willie Nelson or that the NSA intercepted it. It must be because you’re ignoring me!

So I’ve learned to identify this thought pattern and there are a few things that I’ve started doing myself that have helped. The first is to … SUCK IT UP AND DON’T BE SO DAMN SENSITIVE, YOU NANCY BOY! Wait, that was my drill instructors answer … and I guess that’s sort of part of it. But to put it in more practical terms:

  1. Have faith in yourself. If this pattern is coming from insecurity, examine and address that. Are you not feeling good about yourself because you haven’t been working out? Eating well? Taking your alone time? Are you feeling down about some recent life event or situation? Sometimes basic self-care failures can lead to an ego deficiency and sometimes you just need to take care of your ego to maintain a positive self-image. If it’s a hyperactive conscience that drives this pattern for you, examine what irrational fears are driving it and what experiences have conditioned you to blame yourself so eagerly. Oftentimes, the way we are taught by parents to respond to accusations has a lot to do with this. Parents that induce cowering in children will raise cowering adults, even if that cowering is better hidden in adulthood.
  2. Empathize with others. When you remain sensitive to the emotional state of those around you, it makes you much more understanding of what they’re going through. This will resolve the issue half the time when you realize, “Oh! They’re just having a bad day and projecting on me! Maybe I can help them!” This will help you recognize when it’s really their problem, not your problem. So you can stop worrying, and decide whether or not to help without your judgment clouded by your own emotional reaction.
  1. Never act on assumptions based on someone else’s internal state. Ask them! This is part of empathy applied to relationship strategy. We’re all going to make assumptions, so that’s unavoidable. The problem is when we sit on assumptions and hem and haw about what to about them and waste so much energy when just directly asking someone how they feel would save you all that trouble. You can (almost) never go wrong by asking someone how they’re feeling.

  1. Reach out directly! Most of the petty conflicts that I see online would be completely avoided with private messages. I, for one, am extremely accessible, mainly because I want everyone to feel like they can bring issues directly to me when they need to. I don’t get to respond to every email or message I get, but I can still see almost all of them most days and most activists in the movement have my cell phone number. In fact, I’m so accessible, my number was just “doxed” on Facebook and 4chan. This is also important for settling issues while doing the least harm. If two people in a dispute have to tear each other apart publicly before settling things privately, they’ve just suffered more needlessly. And yet somehow, I regularly hear people tell me, “I was going to mention that, but I was afraid to bother you or piss you off.” And somehow, the answer is usually, “I would be a lot less bothered and pissed off if you had brought this up sooner!” Don’t let your negative assumptions stop you from clearing the air, otherwise you’ll always be sitting on some kind of resentment or unease.

  1. Never forget that your true self is awesome and everyone would love you if they got to know your authentic self, so be that, and enjoy the love! Don’t let your false negative self-image or self-doubt or negative assumptions stop you from getting or giving every drop of love possible in this short life.

In writing this post, I have many motivations. Of course I always want to help and empower my readers. I want to affirm for myself something that I’ve identified but not yet mastered in order to get myself closer to mastery. I want my fellow freedom activists to be more effective. And most importantly: Can’t we all just get along?! I hope that this small dose of self-awareness can help shift society towards greater peace, harmony, cooperation, and understanding, which inevitably … lead to FREEDOM!

A New Dallas Accord to Unify The Freedom Movement

In my decade plus of activism, I’ve been constantly dismayed and discouraged by drama and infighting within the freedom movement. I’ve been physically attacked, slandered, libeled, and been the victim of rumor campaigns and character assassination attempts. I have even personally contributed unnecessarily to the public criticism of other activists and been involved in disputes that never should have gone public. The message of freedom is founded in love, but we don’t always live up to the message that we advocate. If we want to succeed as a movement, we must continue to bring our culture in line with our ideals. As it pertains to interpersonal conflict among activists, (“movement drama”) I have found a solution that works for me, and I would like to share it with as many people as possible so that we may all join hands (or at least be able to concentrate our fire) and be a part of this beautiful dance forward for humanity.

While a certain amount of conflict is inevitable in any cooperative human endeavor, sometimes it seems like we have more than our share. This is understandable, and not to be resented or resisted. We have more than our share of passionate, driven, and victimized people in our movement. Oftentimes, it is our victimization by the state that drives us to freedom activism.

We also have a certain amount of conflict that comes from the nature of what we are doing by challenging existing power structure. Some of this is overt in the form of supporters and beneficiaries of the status quo opposing us directly. Some of this is indirect in covert efforts of sabotage, downvoting, trolling, and of course, disruption by the government itself. COINTELPRO is the infamous FBI program from the 60s aimed at surveilling, infiltrating, discrediting, and disrupting activists. If you’re not familiar with COINTELPRO, please at least read the Wikipedia article on it. When you consider what has been revealed about government interference with activism historically, it would be incredibly naive to think that their tactics have gone away instead of evolved.

It is critically important that we continue to develop an approach to conflict to minimize its effect on ourselves and our work if we are to succeed. At a recent speech in Philadelphia at the Free Your Mind Conference, I asked an audience of several hundred people, “How many of you have been regularly involved with an activist group that you were passionate about, but quit because of drama within the organization?” I was shocked when I saw a third of the hands in the room go up. I wanted to cry. Think of all the loving energy robbed from humanity! Regardless of the source of conflict, whether organic or manufactured, the answers are the same: Be loving towards everyone. Be as forgiving as possible. Be accepting and understanding. Take responsibility for your actions. Live by your values. Focus on the positive. Don’t be distracted by drama. Don’t let anyone throw you off your game. Never push people apart when you can bring them together. Be willing to work with people you disagree with to achieve a common goal. Are you noticing a theme here?

Regardless of the source of conflict, the response must be to move past it, or else we condemn ourselves to be forever drowning in it. If we allow ourselves to be divided, surely we will be conquered. This is even more critical when you understand that in order to succeed, our movement needs to grow and we already have the most radically-minded, anti-authoritarian, freedom-loving one percent of the population on our team. The next wave of libertarians are going to be a bit more … normal – and that’s ok! But just thinking of people in general who are more practically-minded than ideologically minded, are they going to want to join a divided movement or a unified one? Are they going to want to join a debate club or a cause that will forever change the world? Are they going to … ok, you’re smart. You get it. Flies and honey and vinegar and all that.

To go one step further, I would like to address what has been a focal point for our movement and an unfortunate focal point of several enduring ideological conflicts: The Libertarian Party. Whether you like it or not, most people who will hear about libertarianism in the foreseeable future will hear about it because of the efforts of the LP. While many of us complain that the party doesn’t perfectly represent us as the face of the movement in the political realm, most don’t bother to do anything constructive about it. So what I am proposing is a formalization of the approach that I have outlined here.  In the 1974 Libertarian National Convention, there was an informal agreement called “The Dallas Accord,” that sought to unify the factions of the party by keeping divisive points out of the platform and making the LP the party of “big tent, smaller government.” It’s time to bring back The Dallas Accord as a formal affirmation of a working attitude based on our values. Let’s make the LP the biggest freedom funnel possible! Let’s welcome everyone who is “freedom-curious” with open, encouraging arms! Let’s have a motion to bring back The Dallas Accord at the 2018 Libertarian National Convention!

Of course, this is much bigger than the LP and much bigger than what we normally think of the freedom movement. If we want to render government obsolete, it has to be about more than politics. It has to be about moving humanity forward in terms of how we relate to people. It has to be about unifying around the core principles of our message and living by our values! So please support this effort in your attitude, communication, activism, how you talk to statists, and hopefully in joining me as a delegate at the 2018 Libertarian National Convention!

***If there is a positive response to this post, I will reach out to other party activists to craft the exact language of this proposal and see how many people we can get signed on before releasing it. Please support this effort by sharing this post with anyone who cares about freedom and encourage those who you think should be involved to email me at adam@thefreedomline.com to share their input.***


No More Regrets, America

by Adam Kokesh

I served my country, or so I was told,
A Marine sent to Iraq,
We thought we were needed to keep you all safe,
but didn’t know what to attack.
We fought, and we killed, and we bled, and we died,
and you kept on sending us back.

Do you feel sorry? Have you any regrets?
Do you think how things could have changed?
Where were you standing, when our country was stolen?
Did you fiddle my freedoms away?
Do you wish you had spoke out or gone to that protest?
It didn’t have to turn out this way.

Your husband came home in a flag draped coffin,
and you know there’s no good reason why.
Your son hung himself with a green garden hose,
and you don’t know why he wanted to die.
Your brother drowned himself at the bottom of a bottle,
and your mother just sits there and cries.

Do you feel sorry? Have you any regrets?
Do you think how things could have changed?
Where were you standing, when our country was stolen?
Did you fiddle my freedoms away?
Do you wish you had spoke out or gone to that protest?
It didn’t have to turn our this way.

These wars are a racket, and always have been,
Did you see it, or were you blind?
We fought and we killed and we bled and we died,
no bid contracts were already signed,
They’ll start up a war just to keep you enslaved,
‘Cause they know that you’ll never mind.

Do you feel sorry? Have you any regrets?
Do you think how things could have changed?
Where were you standing, when our country was stolen?
Did you fiddle my freedoms away?
Do you wish you had spoke out or gone to that protest?
It didn’t have to turn our this way.

And now we are faced with a thousand new ghosts,
from a war that didn’t have to be,
Yet they want your support for a thousand more wars!
In places that you’ll never see,
This is your chance to fight back and stand up,
So hear this one veteran’s plea:

Don’t you feel sorry! Don’t live with regrets!
Today is still another day!
It’s time to stand up, before our future is squandered,
and our freedoms are stolen away!
It’s never too late to speak out and resist,
Because it’s not going down that way!
. . . no we’re not going down that way!
. . . no America’s not going that way!

All photos hear are original photos that I took myself in Iraq except the last which was taken at the IVAW house in Washington, DC.


See you at Anarchapulco? What to do about plants/drama queens

What do we do about people in our movement who do nothing productive, but always seem to be in the middle of things spreading drama? Do we worry about whether or not they’re plants? Does it matter if we just need to ignore them anyway?! I get into this and much more in my latest interview with Jeff Berwick, The Dollar Vigilante, on his show Anarchast. We also got into everything we’re looking forward to with this upcoming Anarchapulco conference. If you haven’t booked your tickets yet, I got you a deal: promo code “freedom” gets you 10% off! I’ll be hosting my “Homesteading Workshop” for as cheap as Jeff would let me get away with, so please join me for that, too!

How and Why to do Ayahuasca

I just got back from Mexico a couple weeks ago and had the most amazing experience with ayahuasca. I cannot recommend it enough. I’ve posted two videos about this, the ten minute summary below, and the complete 3 hour experience linked in its description. I hope you’ll check out this ancient therapy that is rapidly gaining in popularity. Barry Cooper of Never Get Busted fame hosted me with his new business, Trip to Wellness. Not only was he an incredible guide, but the “Barry Cooper Scientific School of Ayahuasca” has the potential to bring this mainstream and make it much more accessible and affordable. As he says, “The chemical composition of ayahuasca is the same in your living room as in the jungles of Peru. You don’t need a shaman when you can self-shaman.” Please check out this video, and if you decide to book a trip with Barry, tell him Adam sent you for a 10% discount.


I’m excited to announce our upcoming national tour, FOR THE LOVE OF FREEDOM! This August, September, and October, my fiancee Macey and I will hit the road for 60 events covering all of the lower 48 states with free copies of FREEDOM! at every stop. When I was in solitary confinement in Washington, DC for civil disobedience, I started writing FREEDOM! because I wanted the ultimate tool to share the message as easily, efficiently, and joyously as possible.

Now in its fourth printing and with around two million downloads, it’s great to see I’m not the only one so inspired by this message! Because so many of you have generously supported this publication so far, we’re confident that your continued support will allow us to keep providing FREEDOM! for free. Aside from our off-the-record meet and greets before each event, all tour events are free and open to the public. To help make this happen, please buy a ticket to one of our meet and greets, and donate here.

As some of you know, we have been quietly building support for Kokesh 2020 behind the scenes. If that support continues to build, next summer I will announce that I am running for President on the platform of peacefully abolishing the entire federal government in an orderly manner and returning all of its land and stolen property directly to the people.

This campaign is not just about voting. It’s about acknowledging the destructive nature of government, and showing how easily we move past it. It’s about tax resistance and civil disobedience. It’s about thinking free and living free, without asking permission! While four years may not be enough time to build the necessary consensus, as long as the support grows, I will run until we win, or government collapses because we the people have withdrawn our consent.

This tour is taking our campaign into exploratory mode. How much support is there for this idea? Can we restore what it means to be American and once again lead humanity toward freedom? To show your support for abolishing the federal government, please support this campaign by joining the organization in our forums, support this tour by sharing our events, and support this cause by reading FREEDOM!, spreading the message, and living free!

As for 2016, I recently attended the Libertarian Party National Convention. Against Trump and Clinton, I’m happy to endorse my former Governor of New Mexico and long-time friend, Gary Johnson. If he wins, it would be a huge step in the right direction toward freedom. I encourage you to support him in your own way while sharing what you find beautiful and empowering about the message of freedom.

Humanity is on the verge of a great tipping point. As we free one mind at a time it draws ever closer. The violence and coercion of governments will soon be displaced by peace and cooperation. We work diligently toward that day because we have faith in the value – and values – of freedom. Please join me in this work by supporting this tour and this campaign with your time, your generous donations, and your commitment to the cause of freedom. We’ll see you on the road!

Fifth Annual Jackalope Freedom Festival Aug 1-8th



♥August 1st – August 8th 2016♥

The fifth annual Jackalope Freedom Festival, is just around the corner and Macey and I are very excited to be going for the first time. This year’s non-event is titled Jackfest V “The Jackalope Love and Agorism Festival” Non-Event #DecentralizeLife. The theme has been different every year, but the underlying idea of leave me aloneism and the non-aggression principle, is what continues to make this gathering of humans successful year after year.

Jackfest V, is free to Camp, Vend, and Attend. Its motto is, “Where spontaneous order happens naturally, without any force, coercion, or aggression.” The main camping area is in Baca Meadows every year. As the festival continues to grow, there are many unoccupied areas of the forest, individuals or groups of people could set up. A view of the google map on the website will give you an idea of the size of the forest, and its limitless opportunity.

From the Website:
The camping festival is held on National Forest Land.Entrance to Black Canyon Lake is at the corner of Rim Road (260) and Forest Road 300 Sitgreaves National Forest, Forest Lakes Estates, AZ 85931.

The Jackalope is going Camping: Aug 1st – Aug 8th 2016. There are no immediate bathrooms or showers in the area (Sponsor A Port a Potty). There is no water or electricity access. Bring your generators and RV’s if you need electricity! Humans are encouraged to bring things others traveling from far away might need access too. Any extra generators/toilet and shower equipment/cooking equipment etc. The elevation is 7,600 ft there, it averages at 82 degrees!

All artists, activists, people who are self sustainable and any other freedom loving person following the (NAP) non aggression principle is welcome. The Jackalope Freedom Festival is where liberty loving individuals come to be left alone to connect with each other. The Jackalope would also like to encourage any cob home specialists, natural builders, land patent specialists and agorists to come. The Jackalopes love Live music playing at all times, so bring it on musicians! See you all there!